Is this love?....

[hawk007]

Originally Posted by zerofighter

Me: Listen to me.. this is not love.... It is just a 过渡期 for you at this moment... A few mths down the road... U will feel different then...
Hazel: I am sure of my feelings... Tell me the truth... Do u have any feelings for me?..
Me: Nope... I only treat u as my sister...

At this moment.. i dun dare to look into her eyes as i make this statement... Nt knowing on how she will react to this.....

There is a awkward pause...... Not a word from each other was heard...

Hazel: I know that u have nt got over her yet...
Me: Certainly.. .. She still lived in my heart...
Hazel: But she is gone for at least 2 years already...
Me: So?... Me and her have went through alot for the past years...
It is nt something which can be forgotten easily...

I was quite emotional at this point as the hurts of losing Yvonne was once again triggered..........

Good!!! Pls carry on

[SouthernPride]

Originally Posted by hawk007

Good!!! Pls carry on

Yes hopefully TS will go on soon

[zerofighter]

Hazel: I know that u need time to move on... And i wun mind waiting for u...
Me: Dun be silly... Your feelings toward me is nt love. ... Anyway.. i wun commit easilt into another relationship. .

I make my stand firnly and we soon headed off hm... Along the way to the car park... I put my hands deeply in my pocket to avoid any physical touch with her. . The journey hm with her is silent... I was feeling very awkward and i really do nt know how to react to this situation well....

[zerofighter]

Time seem to drag... I heaved a sign of relief when i finally turned into her car park...

Hazel: Thanks for the ride hm... And plus dun avoid me ok...
Me: Yup ...
Hazel: U r a faithful man...
With this statement... She gave me a kiss on my cheek and hastily make her way back to the lift lobby...

Needless to say... I was surprised at this sudden action from her....

That nite... I drove aimlessly again and once again i found myself driving towards my seconday school....

This place is my refuge.... I always seem to find my peace whnever i came here... Perhaps this is where i can always feel the presence of Yvonne... Her smiling and composed face will always appear in my mind.....

[SkyOcean]

Very nice, support here

[WaveTeam]

Amazing story and shall support!

[zerofighter]

Slowly i make my way to Yvonne Old block.... The path which was filled with our footsteps. ... Is only left with my footprints now....

I remembered the days when i struggled when Yvonne just passed on... The intense struggles which i need to faced daily... The countless times when i was awakened by the dreams of her

[alec]

Originally Posted by zerofighter

Slowly i make my way to Yvonne Old block.... The path which was filled with our footsteps. ... Is only left with my footprints now....

I remembered the days when i struggled when Yvonne just passed on... The intense struggles which i need to faced daily... The countless times when i was awakened by the dreams of her

I'm not crying.. I'M NOT CRYING 😢

[Kovovo]

Ur story is dam sad. I have to read the Ur story first then read jinyong adventures to balance my mood.
Sorry to hear u go through so much.
Stay strong n fight on!

[zerofighter]

[Ripeye]

Very good share, thanks bro

[zerofighter]

That nite.. i struggled with myself....The thoughts of Yvonne really crippled me....
Deep in my heart... I knew that i still cant let go of her....

As per normal... I still received whapps from Hazel.. but i will take some time to respond to her... And even so my respond is short... Either a word to a few words reply... Hoping that she will get my hint clearly...

Another 2 weeks passed by and i met up with Fatty alone for drinks again...

Fatty: Hey r u ok?..
Me: Yes.. why nt?
Fatty: Sure?.. Btw did Hazel still call u?
Me: Yes at times ba. ..
Fatty: R u angry with me for dragging u in?..
Me: Nope... All these r nt within our control...

[zerofighter]

There is a short silence as i debated with myself whether to probe further..

Me: Btw what actually happened between the 2 of u...
Fatty: What do u meant?
Me: As in she seem to have feelings for u ..
Fatty: Well bro... She small mei mei.... Know nuts abt feelings..
Me: Nope bro... There must be something more to this..
Fatty: Ok bro... The deal is this.. she want me to be her SD with no sex involed...
Me: Hmmn..
Fatty: Of course i wun be so silly right... Pay a few K a mth just to bring her out for meals.. etc..
Me: And so?..
Fatty: So i must get back what i have paid on her right...
Me: And u started to deceive her into having feelings for u...
Fatty: Dun use the word deceive.. i used my own means and methods
Me: Set... Whatever it is.. after u got what u wanted ... U r sick of her liao
Fatty: Of course... This have always been my way..
Me: Yup i know..
Fatty: Bro .. u seem uptight abt this...
Me: Nope i am ok
Fatty: Did u have feelings for her..

I almost choked on my mind when i heard this statement..

Me: Siao.... I am older than her by 21 years... I only treat her as my younger sis..
Fatty: Well...
Me: Lai Drink la..

Soon we r toasting each other again....

[zerofighter]

After a few rounds.. Fatty looked at me in a funny manner..

Fatty:. Wait... Wait... Dun try to avoid my question.
Me: Nope. I am nt aviuding anything.. and i have ans yr question flatly..
Fatty: Putting aside Yvonee. .. u really do nt feel anything for her?..
Me: Yvonne was barely gone for 2 years plus.. i have nt got over ger yet.
Fatty: Ic... What abt other factors...

I paused for awhile.

Me: That is the Primary Factor...

With that we end our discussion.... As i am feeling abit bek chek again. .

[SuperbMaster]

Nice, hoping to read more